Brasserie: May 2009

That is what he said.. and i edited some

when he chatting with a senior... and he asked... Do you know what you want to do by studying music? I said yes. I'm clear by what I wanted to do in my life. But he said... do you think you will succeed? Things will change when u study degree in school. I know, sometimes life thinking changes due to certain conflicts and experience. Who knew maybe tomorrow i came out becoming an Jazz player?(Although it sounds quite impossible) But life is all about changing. So, dear music friends... Are you clear on what you really wanted to do? Some say study music is for fun. Some say they had nothing else to study. Some say... He study to waste his time and get a freaking degree. So which kind are we?

Then dunno how our topic goes into "kiasu" which means scare to lose. I believe everyone scare to lose to other people... but sometimes there is really no need to compare with others. Comparing with others makes you want to improve yourself, that is quite true. And I had to admit that I had been comparing with people even my own teacher. I want to improve more than I AM SUPPOSED to be. I wanted to go further than anyone can. Even though maybe its true that I'm not that talented or what but I just want to walk to there. And to prove myself that I can do what I want to. Here comes another thing, when it comes into music or other stuff such as exam marks... I don't really care too much. Which sometimes I don't really know why. Maybe it benefits me because lets me to feel much more happier.

Then suddenly came into my mind that... Zue asked me what Music means to me. To me, Music is Life. Music reflected Life. What is life then? Life is experience. And we should enjoy life. No people is born to suffer, even some are born in some places that are bad situated but enjoy every little moment of life will surely brings you its benefits. To me, even life is hard but I enjoy it.

haha... a 19 year old guy said something like this...a 'widow' guy